PRISON MINISTRY

Were the words that I saw on a license plate frame. There was a word on the top half, but I couldn't make it out. However, the key words that stuck out are Prison Ministry.

This really brightened my day to see the two words together. In motion pictures,  or any form of popular art there is the narration or showing of some Religious acts in Prison. Specifically, the last rights before an execution.

Again it just kind of lifted my spirit or warmed my heart that in a prison there are still people trying to help those who have been forsaken by their fellow man. Not just Wardens, Administrators, Guards, and Prisoners who all share that one common area, the Prison itself.

I have had no doubt in my mind that there are a lot of careers that are rewarding, but I must say that I have not even seen this occupation as rewarding, maybe because it isn't the most popular or praised profession in the media. When was the last time you heard anything of Prison Ministry? Not likely, unless you are someone or close to someone who does this frame of work.

The reason it brightened my day is to know that everyone has a calling, everyone has a place in this world. Though they might not know what they want to do (cough me cough) it just kind of happens.

Growing up, I used to be so adamant about the idea of pre-destination. 

Now, I don't feel it as much, but rather that life is a mix of pre-destination (Fate) and determination (Drive).

This is feeding into the whole new feelings of confidence, and I find myself not worrying as much as I used to about the future (my closest people to me will cite that I spent a lot of time often worrying about things that haven't even happened, if they even happen).


Plus I think listening to Ahmir's version of "The Climb" while I am writing this also affirms my believe to have a drive.

Someone once told me I've always had the potential but not the drive, well recently (past couple of months I shifted to drive and I know I am going somewhere with my life.

New Feelings

So for those of you who don't know, I have some major self-confidence issues. 

That has changed. 

I realized yesterday that I am a good catch for a relationship. I consider myself as a keeper. I am not saying that I am God's gift to women, but I used to think so little of myself when it came to this subject but that is not how I feel now. 

On that topic, I am in no rush to get into a relationship. I have a new found appreciation for all the amazing people in my life so far. I am truly blessed for all the people I have in my life, past, present, and future. 

Another boost in self confidence came when I turned my transfer application for UCLA and UCSB. A couple of months ago, I would've laughed at someone if they were to say that I would apply for UCLA. 

A friend commented on how happy she is for me and how I have such high dreams, and that I am pursuing them. 

When it comes down to it, I have no idea on what I plan on doing, but I still want to chase my dreams of being an actor and a writer. 

It's just so weird a year ago, I was going nowhere fast, and on a slippery slope. 

On top of that it's also been a year since I started watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S. and I don't know it's like my favorite show now ha well of course other than Boy Meets World. 

I just feel so happy and confident about the future, this also is a new feeling.