CHANGES

Recently I've found myself changing in personality. Whether the changes are trivial, or life changing only the future knows.

The first change I'm noting is that I am losing the value of my word, and I kind of like it. I took some comfort in that I was the guy who ALWAYS kept his promises, but I find myself making promises that I intentionally don't intend to keep. So if I make a promise, don't take it too seriously, for I am done making obligations to anyone.

The second is my tolerance, and respect for other people is diminishing at a quick rate. I used to be so supportive, understanding, if not respecting, but I'm losing grips of that. So if I seem short tempered that is why. Even more so I find myself a less forgiving and a more heartless person each day. I can't seem to find the good in everyone like I used to, I tend to try and find their pasts and make my own personal judgments about them.

 I am starting to show no signs of remorse for my actions. Someone close to me said I should go see a therapist for it, I honestly don't know if I will take that advice. For I, myself don't really believe in therapy, after two sessions Sr. Year, I found much more solace in my anti-depressants.

I am starting to feel very apathetic for the future. I could care less if the world ends tomorrow, because maybe I fear that I am going nowhere fast, and my dream of being a rich, successful, and famous actor is nothing but a pipe dream. Truth is my dream as out there and narcissistic, and maybe even greedy is to be an "A-list" celebrity. I'd invite TMZ and alike, I don't care. If the limelight burns, then I'd probably enjoy it.